Breakthroughs… and Sticking Points

So yesterday, full of awesome energy from my new "Natural Grounding" breakthrough, I'm on the train, smiling – not even realizing I'm grinning. This beautiful woman behind me says "You have such an amazing smile, I just want to smile with you." It was literally the first time anybody's spoken to me on that train except to say "excuse me." I was kind of caught off-guard – you mean you can talk to people on these things? There was a little chit-chat and some seats open up, and her girlfriends grab them, she starts walking toward the open seats then turns and looks back. She says to her friends "I don't know if I want to sit. I want to keep talking to that cute guy."

When I'm just being in this state, I just attract women. Of course, I'm not in a place to make anything happen from those interactions, but it feels good to know – yes – this is me connected to my masculine core, my sexiness. And I know there's a lot more of this coming.

Aaaahh… then there's the psychic dead weight, my attachment to my wife. I send sexy messages to her and get… nothing. And it's a beautiful day, I just had grrrreat phone sex, I did some power yoga, had a great meditation and grounding, everything's clicking and… I'm letting this woman's actions bum me out. Instead of enjoying myself and my day, I'm feeling disappointed and angry. Just another example of how our minds tend to filter out the abundance and focus on the lack. It's an opportunity for more release and growth… but it sure would be nice to have a wife who desired me the way it seems like every other woman in the world EXCEPT my wife desires me. If she were someone I was dating and she were being like this, I'd just let her go and think nothing of it. Come to think of it… that's never really happened, at least not with the women I've been sexual with.