I Know Who I Am

I know who I am. 

Finally.

I finished my final session with Destin Gerek.  For the past four months, I've been evolving by leaps and bounds, experiencing unbelievable breakthroughs, changing my personality in incredible ways, and finding the tools to continue this evolution on my own, forever.  I've connected with my sexual self, which had been compartmentalized and treated with disrespect by me for my life up to now.  I got to know this erotic side of me, see how amazing this part of me is, and integrate it into my way of being.

Three weeks ago, I stepped into my ideal self.  Three weeks is about how long it takes to integrate a radical shift, and I went through the whole integration process.  Then Destin anchored this shift in further in our final session.

Because these shifts have been happening so drastically and so quickly, parts of me are trying to catch up.  There's always been part of me that's been hesitant to really rock this new me, a certain disbelief that this change could happen so quickly, an urge to "wait and see."

Aaaahhhh… then today, it clicked.  I know who I am.  The part of me that's been wanting to "wait and see" is convinced and diving in.

It's not like "I'm done now," it's just the process of the more cautious side of me accepting this awesome new me.  I feel SOLID, more grounded than ever.  And that giddy "high" is settling into this awesome inner knowing. 

I know who I am.

That part of me that's been looking outside for "proof," holding onto doubt, kicking the tires, has made the sale now.  I feel this congruence with who I am that I've *never* felt.

I know who I am.

And in the process, I gained some insight into how I change.  I've learned to appreciate that part of me that adopts a "wait and see" attitude.  There's value in that.  This isn't me rejecting the change, it's me test-driving the change and making sure it's right for me.  I can't rush that process, only honor it, and I wouldn't want to get rid of that part of me.

The difference between now and the "old me" is I know I've changed.  This isn't a temporary thing.  I wasn't "backsliding," just investigating, getting to know the new, authentic me.  And once that part of me accepted this change, I felt a surge of energy in my heart, a feeling of love that spread all through my body and mind.

So here I am, right after the conclusion of the coaching, "graduating" into my evolved self, much like right after the conclusion of the "Orgasmic Mastery" course I experienced multiple orgasms.  Maybe there's something about giving myself a tangible date for changing that offers that little extra "push" to push my evolution over the final hump to success.

Destin Gerek promised to rock my world.  He came through.  Everything has come together, almost like magic.  Now it's time for the "new me" to go out and rock the world.