AMP "Authentic Sexual Power" Lessons Learned

I've had some big shifts from this.  One is this very cool feeling of accessing my body.  I've done some of the physical exercises and also a "Microcosmic Orbit" exercise and I feel so much more in my body.  Another shift happened when I was watching the interview with the "Erotic Rock Star," and I could feel his presence and the fluidity in his movement and especially in his eyes. 

It was this little thing, but a big shift.  I've been doing all these affirmations and really focusing on eye contact, and I could see by watching this DVD that I could bring that into my gaze, and back into my being, just feel more flow and be more a flow.  It's a great shift, it feels like it was the "missing piece" to really being present in my gaze.

I also gained this feeling of really feeling my desire for women and enjoying my desire.  It's brought a lot more energy and fun into things.

One more thing, and this just came up, is drilling down into what's motivating my emotions, particularly the anger that seems to come up without any reason.  Then the shift – being a yes to my feeling this.  So I'm feeling needy, there's neediness here.  Okay, great.  Be okay with neediness instead of fighting it.  Be with the "bad emotion" or "bad state" and let it be.  This is the key to releasing these feelings, being okay with them so there's no resistance.

The other piece I'm taking away is being a yes to the situation or the feeling and then checking in with what I really want.  The reason I'm having relationship troubles is first, not being a yes to the reality and my state and second, not being in touch with what I really want. 

Right now I want to go outside and play.  I'm feeling a sense of obligation to working through the AMP course and for getting ready for my vacation.  I often go toward obligation, or fear I'll lose approval, instead of going for what I really want.  Getting more present and actually observing my thoughts and feelings instead of living in my ego is helping me see this better.